Thursday, May 28, 2015

Move Out of Your Way

There are a few things that have become abundantly clear lately.

First, I’ve been making excuses. Second, I’ve been neglecting writing. Third, I’ve been neglecting reading. Fourth, I’ve been neglecting blogging. And fifth, I’ve been making excuses about making excuses. 
Admitting I haven’t been reading or writing nearly as much as I should makes me feel like a bit of a fraud, especially since I regularly tout my love of both (and when I look back through my posts and realize this isn't the first time I've made such a confession). But it’s the truth. And I’m admitting it now because I’ve vowed to change that, and admitting it means I’m not making an excuse, which starts to take care of point one and five. By writing about it I’m also starting to address points two and four. See what I did there?

But, because I don’t like to do things halfheartedly, I acknowledge this is really just the beginning.
Regarding points two and three: my reasons excuses for not reading or writing lately have usually been some combination of "I’m busy because of planning for/getting ready for/waiting for my wedding"; "I’m planning for/packing for/going on my honeymoon"; "It’s budget/election/graduation season at work"; "my meetings have been going too late" etc.

But as I think back to the times I’ve said those things, a few quotes come to mind. The first being, “Many things aren’t equal but everyone gets the same 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. We make time for what we truly want.” And, similarly, “You have the same amount of hours in a day as BeyoncĂ©.”
That leaves me feeling like a complete and utter slacker – but it’s true. “We make time for what we truly want.” If I don’t make the time then what’s left to be determined but that I don’t truly want it?
I want to object to that idea. I do want it! And that, in turn, is why I’m admitting I’ve made excuses, acknowledging the truth of the matter and making a change.  

How said changes will occur or already are occurring: A wonderful couple of days at my family’s vacation home in Vermont last weekend proved the perfect place for me to get back to reading. One of my favorite things to do is wake up, grab a cup of coffee and a book and sit outside with my favorite view of the mountains in front of me.

I felt the tug as I did so this past weekend: the tug of a good book that wants to pull you into its pages and keep you there until you’ve reached the very last punctuation mark on the very last page, at which point you’ll find yourself crawling back out, dazed and slightly sad that it’s over but anxious to go in search of the next tug, the next entrapment, the next adventure and escape.

That tug is irresistible. And now that I’ve felt it again, I’m ready to hold on to it. I’m back to waking up and reading a bit before I get up, and enjoying a few pages (or a few too many pages) before bed. I want it to become a habit. It deserves to be one.

Now, to say I’ve been neglecting writing isn’t exactly true. Through my work as an assistant newspaper editor I write almost every day of the week. But, as much as I enjoy my job, writing newspaper articles is not my passion. Writing stories, now that’s my passion. And that’s what I’ve been neglecting. That changes tomorrow though, when I return to my "office."

Take a guess where it is.

If you thought Starbucks, you’d be correct. ClichĂ© as it may be, I’m more productive there than any place else. That’s where I finished my first book, and that’s where I intend to finish my second and start my third – both this summer.

So that’s that. No more excuses about writing, reading and blogging and no more excuses about excuses.

To end on a quote: “the only person who can stand in the way of your success is you.”  -Black Swan.

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